Buddhist teachers often struggle with helping students find the present moment. Find the present moment and take it in, be it, taste it, feel it. Don Miguel Ruiz in his bestselling, life- changing book "The Four Agreements" ties present moment awareness into his key to living life fully and always doing your best. When I look back on this little dingy apartment that I have made my home for the past year, I have to admit that it makes me feel oddly proud. I don't see the constant cleaning, the noise pollution, the garbage pollution, I see a home where I overcame my fear of thunder and rainstorms. I see a place where I learned to cook and to self-nurture. This has been a home where I was able to adopt two beautiful cats and make a home for them with me. It was in this apartment that I discovered much of what I like and who I am and also discovered what I don't like and that it's okay that I don't like certain things.
I have been forced to be strong for the past year, face down inner demons, carry myself through fire and survive the ups and downs of life. It has not been easy but it has been good.
I am already very much in love with the new place. It is perfect for me and my cats. Yet, oddly in many ways I will miss the early mornings in this old apartment. I will miss my early meditation and the quiet of country back roads. I will always look back on this chapter of my life with a smile. So, the present moment has taught me not to run away or turn my back because the lessons that are there teach us strength. Strength only forces us deeper and we look more closely within to get to the root of our essence, who we are and what we want. In conclusion, I thank Daisy Lane for this strength, for understanding of my responsibility towards myself, self-loyalty, allowance of love, the root of truth, the power of integrity and I carry those parts of myself now onward, always.
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